I have learned that unless I have deeply engaged my soul within the progress of my daily life, I feel alone and lost. Once I made it a priority to also listen to and include that which felt like my own soul deep within me, my life began to feel more fulfilling and complete. This listening within led me to follow pursuits that felt more satisfying and to also begin to hear what I truly desired within my life. It began to surface out of the ongoing, daily 'din' that had become my daily routine. This discovery was a point of no return. I had reached the stop sign of my soul. Something within refused to go away until I paid attention.
It presented itself most clearly to me in the form of myself as a small girl who I hid in the forest and could not acknowledge until I reached a juncture within where I was ready to hear and receive her. When I reached this juncture I could more readily begin the journey that would allow me to integrate her within my everyday life. Little did I know that she was my soul calling out to be reclaimed from the deep recesses of my own consciousness so I could learn to live more fully.
Once I acknowledged her, everything in my life began to change. I became more cognizant and aware of what I truly desired to experience within my life. And, without immediately knowing it, would require great changes to overcome that which had become present within me: despair over my own circumstances of loneliness and confusion. For I had indeed lost my way. I was bereft of the power and possibility that I once witnessed and knew within myself as a Being of light. This revelation changed the course of my life. In all manner my life now had to adjust itself to that which was my truest essence of being. This process of alignment brought me deeper and deeper into myself.
It triggered a journey of awakening through which I found within the other half of the essence of my being within this lifetime. He who would further my awakening process. My twin energy. He who resonates in the same oscillating pattern and matches the truest essence of myself within. This form of energy is referred to as a twin soul in some circles, twin flame in others. Within my own Self he would come to be known as He who Matches the Truest Essence of myself within. This is a twin energy born in the fires of revelation and cannot be denied. Through this (re)connection with this essence of my self in the physical, in the form of another human being, I was able to reconnect within me that greater portion of myself that had fallen asleep.
I began to awaken. I began to 'see' and experience light beings within my sleep experiences and to commune in other light being settings without being fully aware of what was happening to me. At the time I just knew something amazing was happening within. It was a form of connecting with something in myself that felt reflective of the collective consciousness of Humanity.
This was an incredible journey of finding and collecting parts of my soul essence from 'dark' spaces within a consciousness where I felt trapped and alone. It was the (re)collection of myself that had been lost over lifetimes as a Being of Light on planet Earth in a journey that I began as a Starling child unbeknownst to me at the time. It had first triggered unconsciously when I met my twin flame, my twin soul essence, early in this lifetime as a teenager, and it grew in intensity over the course of my life until it burst forth as we reconnected and reunited as mature adults. When this occurred our merge brought forth my desire to know the truest, deepest essence of myself beyond the veil of this existence. I began to realize that more existed within me than could be seen with the naked eye.
This further awakening triggered another series of events that led to my demise within the western world as I once knew it. This was not an actual, physical death, but a death of my 'old' self that once desired glory, fame, and material worth. As this transpired, more within me began to open up and desire to be heard.
I became aware that I was on a mission to support the ascension process of Mother Earth and Humanity. A journey that would have been unfathomable to me in my old way of thinking and being. As I further traveled this journey, I found myself collecting various aspects of myself and forgiving them within me. These aspects had been lost over time in multiple fields of reality and existence.
Awareness of this was also something that was new to me. It came upon suddenly and I jumped time zones so quickly that I began to manifest new energies unto my being. Energies that left me bereft for I didn't understand them. I am still learning the full meaning of their existence and power within as they are the multiple aspects of myself that have come to Planet Earth to assist in this momentous time of Evolution and Change. They are the Multi-Dimensional aspects of myself that exist beyond the plane of awareness for many people. Because of this they are hard to accept within my field, yet cannot be denied. It is like a reunion of my greater Self that has been waiting for millennia to be 'seen' and 'heard.'
Now I traverse time spaces in my dream state journeys and awaken and write about them in my blog. It is a journey that continues to awaken the multiple aspects within myself that have lain dormant. It is a fascinating journey in which I continue to uncover myself. I cannot imagine life any other way now.
As one begins to first become aware of one's self beyond the veil, it can feel frightening for it generates within a desire to know more, yet seems surreal and unfathomable at the same time. How can it possibly be that we are more than what we see? Is this not what only Gods can be made of? And yet, we do exist in greater form. We are of an essence that allows us to exist on multiple planes of consciousness and awareness. We are not only human in our existence. We are also spirit.
As we begin to awaken along our journey, we need other essences of Being to support our path so we do not get lost along the way. This is because we have not yet traveled this far in our evolution before. We are on a path of ascension that will allow us to move forward in our current time while also remaining in our bodies. We are ascending while descending. This means that we 'keep' our bodies while we travel forth in our journey back to Self. We will collect the essences of our self and journey forward into a time that allows us to purge what we experienced over millennia and move into our next form of being.
This journey is being created now by those who have come before us and invite our participation in the New Earth. We are allowed within the time space of this new creation as we prepare our Selves within. It is a journey not to be taken lightly for it challenges the essence of your soul to recollect its self from the various lifetimes it has experienced upon planet earth and beyond. It requires great fortitude and intention of heart to become that which you were always designed to become: masters in a growing universe, a return to your galactic self within, a remembrance of your inner being and to all that it is connected. This journey challenges belief systems that have become antiquated and jumps us forward into a time when we can access the full essence of our Self. It is not for the faint of heart.