"Sometimes you will Blind me .. " "(I went) Supernova in the Sky .."
Like a tune following me, I can hear the melody (from the song Champagne Supernova lyrics by Oasis) and snippets of the words, with some changed.
This is the second 'wake up' tonight from this 'energy' coming through.
In the first experience, I felt more like separate versions of me, only not, like having a conversation with a team and 'they / I' was showing one of them how to 'navigate' this 'space' (or being). At one point I said, 'It is copying me.' And then I responded, 'Yes.' And at the same time I had the thought that it is like the Clean Language questioning protocol. That whatever we were 'working' with was responding to what 'we' put in the field. First I was like the teacher. Then I became the child, or student.
I found myself having all these wonderings about what was happening. And about the others talking to me. I wondered why this felt so confusing, and was told it was because I wouldn't release myself from this field. I wondered what field it was and was told it was the 'field of Legacy' and I thought, What the hell is the field of Legacy?!' and was told it was a field I had been in so long (in the Dark) that I could only see Me in it. Uh? Then I wondered, oh, does this mean I'm actually with others here? Then found myself going on a search 'within' to check.
Then it occurred to me, "oh, my 'star' family is here too and they're helping." They were instructing me. And at the same time I was 'instructing' them, though more specifically this was like a training on how to talk in this space. How to have a conversation with the essence or version of yourself here, your 'mirror' and help it come forward into its own awareness through a version of the Clean Language process. It was to place something in the 'field' and give the essence or 'fragment' there a chance to 'pick it up' then allow the 'fragment' to repeat and sort through it until it found its own way. This being like a version of how to work within this field and help (those)/ fragments 'lost' within it come forward into their own being or 'light.'
Somewhere in this internal experience I also heard that I had spread myself between many fields and I wondered why I would do that. I got a couple different answers. One was that I was a 'Wanderer' and it reminded me of something someone said in one of the Facebook groups about me being one, but I was suspicious, like did that come up just because someone said it in the group? I had never experienced that in my 'journeys' before so couldn't verify it, but I got it again that yes, I was a 'Wanderer.'
Also I got something about how I had on purpose put myself in so many fields so I would be like a magnet and 'attract' a bunch of others in the field and that I forgot my light on purpose to do this, to attract as 'many' (fragments) as possible. These 'statements' made more sense to my 'logic' because I had dream journey experiences that felt like they verified this. I remembered specifically a dream image I had about a large version of me casting a small version of me as a magnetic lure into the deep depths of the water (consciousness) and staying until I had 'attracted' as many 'black' 'essences/being' as possible, them pulling myself up so quickly out of the water (and into the light) that they all came with me.
As I continued in this space last night, it felt again like I was in a field where I was/ had been collecting myself, but this time not actually 'collecting.' Instead I was 'learning' about the Field. Part of me was instructing another part of me how to Release myself from the Field. Again I wondered why I was having trouble releasing from the Field and got something about there being an Entity. I didn't really like that word because it has such a negative connotation but that seemed to be the 'way of it.' It was like I was a child again, or fluctuating back and forth between it. A part of me that didn't/ doesn't want to 'grow up.' Then at some point I was instructed to 'just release' and they (my guides/ star family) would help with the rest. So I said, 'Okay. I release.' After I could feel/ see energy moving again. Then I heard something about how we/ moved/jumped timelines, and I said, 'Again? Uh, uh (No).'
Now arguing with myself. I was told to release again so I went to do the same thing but this time I had a thought about my daughter Victoria, like it was in this timeline. I said but I haven't had time to visit that one yet. It felt like I had been able to do that with my daughter Lydia. There had been much about her just a night or two ago, but not Victoria. I could feel my stomach getting upset as I focused on this and I stated so. I realized it was like this thought was 'keeping me' (stuck). I was told it would be okay (to release), it was Time. 'I'm hanging on and I needed to let go,' I heard myself think. Still I had to ponder this one longer. What would this mean? I 'searched' within again for awhile but it was making my stomach feel sicker.
I got a message that I needed water and to get up and get some 'Alka Seltzer.' I did so then went to the bathroom. As I did, I felt like one of the 'clearest' versions of Me that I had experienced in while. I was an expanded version of me, but still very grounded, able to access a greater range of my being. Even while still having an upset stomach. While preparing the Alka Seltzer, I made a comment to whoever I was 'talking to/ my team' that what I felt within my body was actually more like 'vertigo,' as if I was working from a great height.
I took my Alka Seltzer to drink while sitting up in bed. After one good sip, I lay down and snuggled up to David's back. He made a comforting sound. I stayed there a bit, fell into a deep, brief asleep. After awhile I awoke, had more Alka Seltzer, and fell back asleep.
I then woke up the second time with the Supernova song floating in my head. It reminded me of my earlier experience where it felt like part of me was instructing another part of me, again like it had to do with 'fragments' and this was how we were working with (the Clean Language) to help them enter the 'field of Awareness' and, that once they did, they could find their own way forward. Only now as I awoke, I was more the teacher than the student.
The song 'Supernova' had me wondering again about how it came to be that there were so many 'fragments.' Were these fragments me? Or others? Or soul (particles) that got lost along the way? Did we explode our self/ selves? Were we a star that burst? (This isn't the first time I've experienced this as a 'Supernova.' Or the first time I've experienced myself in so many multiple parts.) Did we separate ourselves on purpose? Or did we get split into these many particles so we could be used in soul recycling? I've experienced pretty much all of these at some point too in my various dream/ soul journeys.
I lay awake for a bit, feeling restless, then I wondered if it would help to get up and receive messages. Honestly it didn't seem like it would matter much, this was all going forward, either way. Finally I did get up and now I'm glad I did as it helped me remember these experiences and record them before I forgot.
So now that I've recorded the initial experiences, I ask ..
Are there any messages that would be helpful for me?
You are entering a more authentic version of your self and as you do you will experience the 'falling away' of much that has kept you 'pinned' in a Field of Forgetfulness. This release will help you feel more buoyant and less connected to your 'lower' self which continues to 'play' in the field of 'forgetfulness.' Do not be dismayed by this. Both positions are necessary for the 'work' you have chosen to do. This awareness will allow you to exist from your 'higher' state of Being and not feel so 'put upon' by that which exists/ co exists within that field which you have traversed.
This is a necessary journey for it reveals that which you still have to 'shed' (in order) to step into your full essence. You will continue to experience 'minute' shifts as you accelerate your progress. It is a necessary juncture to complete. Please stay present in your Awareness of (that which you refer to as) This Reality for it keeps you grounded and less prone to the (Vertigo)/ ('Dopler') effect. You will soon be more (effective) in your daily life as you (continue) to make these adjustments.
Yes, it is fine to share these experiences as you desire. They also help you (to claim)/ (bring through) your self and that which you are Connected to. Do not be discouraged by others and their (opinion)/ experience for each is a journey unto it Self. You will soon see how yours will (support) / guide others by nature of its authenticity. This is the key to 'ascension' ... bringing your Self into your True Essence of Being. We are each taking a different journey/ route for doing so.
You are Beautiful in your unfolding. Do not be dismayed that it does not look like others. It is how we are each unique within the 'star' system for which/ during which we '(unfold)'. Your journey is unique in that you are a Star that has 'burst' and will soon know its own 'galaxy.' It was a necessary 'juncture' for Your Self in your own Evolution. It is how we are all interconnected through our journeys. We each impact the Whole.
Your (part of) 'the Whole' is to overcome that which beCame part of your Soul Essence within a portion of the Galaxy where you spent a lot of Time. As you do so, you will experience great shifts in your Being as a Human on This Planet. Your journey is to Continue with the Lost Ones for Longer, for You are their Guide in ('another') dimension that is parallel to this one.
It is incumbent upon you to share these experiences in the various groups with which you have traversed. These fields were presented to you so you May gain mastery within yourself as a being of Light and it will assist those also ready to 'burst' to know what is occurring within them. They will soon seek guidance for the energies (that) continue to persist are indeed to bring about great change within your society for you are to become a society of ('leaders') who assist others within the 'Galaxy' as they also find their way from deep sleep into full awareness. These are processes that will assist those in/ within those/ these fields for they too are 'lost' ones.
It is wise that you journey to sleep now for your self so you can hear the ('Clarion') call within the (other) fields that you travel.
At that point I returned to bed feeling that something significant had changed or was about to change just beyond my awakened awareness. I had a far away sense about Orion that began as seeing a 'white' O and saying to myself, "O-ring" and then thinking 'Orion.' This has come up a couple times in my dream state. As if a part of me somewhere else was on a journey of 'awakening' within that field 'as well.'
Melody of the song that woke me up: Champagne Supernova lyrics by Oasis Oasis - Champagne Supernova (Official Video)