I awaken from my sleep after hearing myself say "okay" to whoever was talking to me. I decide to get up.
This isn't the first time I have found this version of myself in conversation. This version of myself is like an innocent child. Even her responses and questions sound like a young child. She is like the purest version of me that never experienced herself beyond a certain age. Is she an extension of myself that broke off at one point? Is she a part of me that hid herself from the atrocities of the world to protect herself?
I have had many instances of experiencing this childlike part of myself in my extended dream journey state. She appears to be the one most attached to the 3d matrix. I can feel how closely she sits beneath the surface of my emotion. I know if I begin writing about the many experiences of her within my extended dream journeys that I will tap into that deep emotion. I don't feel quite ready to do so yet.
I take a small processing break and then ask for messages.
Do you have any messages for me?
Please be gentle with yourself.
You are a higher being who has experienced much trauma in your myriad incarnations. These are the lifetimes that need healing. This is your self talking to yourself and that is okay. You don't have to be so split into so many parts of yourself any longer. You can allow yourself to recognize these myriad versions of yourself on this earth plane and allow them to rejoin your essence without living in so much fear. It is safe now to allow yourself from these lifetimes to come forward to be acknowledged and healed. They don't have to be so alone any longer. It doesn't matter whether they were dark or light, good or evil, monsters or angels. These are terms from an existence of duality. You can stop judging yourself now and allow yourself to just be who you are, regardless of the experience that you had. Regardless of what felt done to you or what you did to yourself. It is okay to allow it to come forward and just be what it is. As the experiences reveal themselves you will know how to unconditionally accept, forgive, and love. You will know how to love yourself in all your components and aspects. It is okay for you to trust this about yourself. You know it is your inherent nature.
You know now it is close to the surface and that it is safe to finally allow these things to come through. You can feel it in your heart, in the truth of your emotion. You have been following it so closely for awhile now. Finally you can allow it to break the surface in the most loving way. You do not have to any longer hide behind your 'lack of awareness' in this reality. You can allow it through. It is okay to remember.
You are not alone. You are not alone. You are not alone. You are not alone. You are not alone. You are not alone. You are not alone.
You are a starseed who came here long ago to assist with the planet in a time that she really needed you. You have loved her much in your incarnations here. It is okay that you don't fully remember right now, and it is okay to allow it through when you are ready. Yes it is most likely this remembrance that you are so afraid of that you simply remove yourself within this existence. It is how you have protected yourself from having to fully acknowledge who you are. Lifetime after lifetime.
The seeds of your divine nature are buried within. You will soon be ready to hear the truth about yourself. Already you have been receiving more light and hearing more of the messages that are waiting for you to acknowledge them.
We can tell that soon you are ready to receive us. We are your Galactic family who are waiting to 'meet' you. We have come into your awareness field before but the shock of seeing us was more that your 3d brain could process and so you found yourself mindfully incapacitated. We will be able to enter your field again soon and have you sustain in your present awareness for longer and longer periods of time. It will begin with short 'sightings' so as not to overwhelm your system then fade back for processing within your 3rd dimensional brain. In this way these brief experiences will allow you to accustom yourself to our presence without feeling overwhelmed.
This feels like a good stopping point. I allow myself to process the message for while, rereading portions. I can feel it flowing through what feels like the various layers of myself. Then I clean up the notes I have placed before and after the message. It helps me reground into my current reality and I know I'm ready to return to bed.