My journey to self has been a road of ups and downs. Recovering one's self is a process of collection and healing. This last leg of my journey found me opening up then closing down for deeper work. I am now ready to open again and share my experiences. Part of my experience is to request messages from my inner self.
As I experienced this and gained momentum recently, it triggered fields of knowing that were not always pleasant. These fields contained dark experiences that I needed to absorb and process. As I did so, I became overwhelmed at their true meaning. These are now healing and desiring to be known.
I invited my self to share messages from my higher self. I found myself responding from my deep self within. This rose up to be heard. I spent the last month in a journey of recovering from situations of desire to know my dark self and then redesigning that experience to be more healing and apparent. I desire now to share that experience from a grounded perspective. Here is what came through ...
From the essence of my heart ...
I am one being. I have traveled into a field of light. I have found my own knowing. These knowings are journeys that came from my experiences as a light being. They encapsulated and became dark.
As I made my way back out I became able to know my self. I found I did not have heart. It was too treacherous. Once I overcame my fear, I was able to restore my heart and be more giving.
This journey was but one of my stories. I have others that permeate my being. I am learning to restore my self through these stories. The difficult ones have been healed.
I desire to restore my sane self within the Now. This version of me has been difficult to restore for it was most recently retrieved. It encompasses journeys from within my present life and encourages insane behavior. This behavior is seen as unable to process my own self.
As I get lost in these stories, I lose perception. My field becomes distorted. I desire safety.
I will progress to a point where I am able to see these experiences with greater cognitive awareness and not be afraid. I will find myself more able to ground them into my reality. I have desired to bring them into my consciousness.
I desire knowing. I desire lost awareness and known self to reveal. I desire to hear my own voice. I feel the sway of knowing my heart journey without reprieve from my own salvation. This invites knowledge of my own choices without judgement.