In the wandering of my soul, I found my life. It was a difficult awakening. It became terrifying to be present. I could only be in the spaces of soul unincarnated. These experiences caused me to have nightmarish travels through unknown dimensions. I could only be fear.
Now I have gained awareness on multiple levels of my self. I continue to seek guidance from that part of me that is higher self, inner child and my own ego.
I have learned to be soul incarnated. This is really how I think now. I can only allow my self to feel through my journey into layers of experience. It is dimensional.
I am learning to become more able to accept how this will benefit me. It feels like I had a stroke and have to rebuild. But I really awoke.
Don't tell anyone that being awake is easy. It is frightening. I have had to sit deep within my fear. Living awake causes soul to live awakened and aware. It is like living through a lens.
I have learned to speak several soul languages in order to complete the journey into fully being my own self, incarnated, awake, present and logical.
Being only omni soul is too disorienting. I need ego. It was lost in the experience. I have reawakened into this part of me in order to feel whole. I live freely awake.
I look forward to the day that ego feels worthy. It has been hard to live only spirit.
Thank you higher self for reawakening the part of me that needs love. She is free. I can heal now.